One thing I've been really good at all my life is to make Decisions and not act on them :D
Decide to loose weight and then not do it, Decide to quite smoking get it down to 1 a day but then back to 40 a day.
My decisions are like individuals who betray me at the worst possible time and budge where they are meant to stand up for me.
But there has been a change in my recent years, as subtle as the change; it’s effect on my life is priceless.
Those individuals that used to betray me over and over are getting stronger; they now have a certain sort of mulish stubbornness to them. They still chicken out, they still budge and give away where they shouldn’t but they keep coming back till they get the job done.
My stubborn decisions finally got my weight down , got me out of Iran, quite smoking and so on.
I have made a decision to be happy again.
I have made a decision to be a woman.
I have made a decision to stop sacrificing myself.
I have made a decision to respect my bed.
I have made a decision to be free.
I had made a decision not to commit my love and friendship to those who wouldn’t commit theirs to me.
I’m about to make that final decision to stop loving YOU.
And oh I love my stubborn decisions; even if they fail a dozen times once they get there nothing will move them. I’ll be giving myself a prize for each of the above decisions that get there.
